David's Super Chill Hoof Journal

How’d It Go?

Civic holiday! Got it done, no serious pain, mind was very busy though. Lots of bathroom breaks though, first had to circle back to home, then had to stop at a starbucks 😆

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Calm, tired

Would I have regretted skipping this?

YES

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Alternate strategies needed for days where mind won’t come back to me

Any woo woo mantras

The sun rises in the east the sun sets in the west

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Totally normal! But had to go BEFORE, then had to circle back and go again, then had to make that pit stop.

How did those shoes feel?

Ultra 3s, felt a bit too firm for the first 2 or so, but by the end felt just right.

Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?

This was a 9km monday morning easy run... the plan is truly starting to ramp up now, but I guess we asked for this.

How’d It Go?

It was a success on the “stacking the bricks” dimension, I would say it was so-so for my mind, nothing ever came into focus. I think I was extra in my body because of the symbolic value of the 10-miler (the number kind of has its own glamour, but also 10 was my longest run pre-previous-half), and I did have moments of reminding myself that nervousness is just a story about the state of your body blah blah blah but mostly that just turned into effort to hold on to those thoughts. There were actual effortless moments though, particularly in the last 2-3, which I am choosing to celebrate as a hard won achievement made possible by the other bricks we already stacked.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Very content, but quite sleepy also. It was an early start this morning.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Very much.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

I start to believe that I will be ready on race day.

Any woo woo mantras

The sun rises in the east the sun sets in the west.

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Was a horrible repeat of the bathroom aspects of the last long run. If I don’t go before I go out, then I need to be prepared to circle back because the first portable on the etobicoke creek trail is just slightly too far.

HAVING SAID ALL THAT, trialed my first gel from the variety pack today, just one, at 10km, worked well. Here’s where we’ll be tracking what we try: https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1wgWTcJ3tHzTPhg88Pl39Yc17sCHiguL3gPEJvjz_Vz4/edit?gid=1663202865#gid=1663202865

How did those shoes feel?

Speeds, great, wow, fantastic baby.

Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?

We’re now officially in the part of the training block that feels like hard work, but also can take heart that so far we are responding by stepping up to the challenge.

How’d It Go?

Quieter, somehow? I think it is not insignificant that we listened to an audiobook (the eight mountains) today instead of music.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Not a LOT different.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

I think so yes but also I thing I’m having a problem with is insufficient sleep, and you have some ground to make up I think.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?
Any woo woo mantras

Returned a bit to a breathing exercise from last night, breathing in and imagining all the appearances of the visual field rushing towards you, then exhaling as you imagine the appearance of the self rushing AWAY from you. Would like to pursue that further on long run this weekend.

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Nothing! But the gels grab bag is coming today, that should be fun for long run.

How did those shoes feel?

Fine.

Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?

Listened to a book today. I don’t know why yet.

What was it about THIS run?

Here’s a picture that I didn’t realize I took, apparently of the garbage can.

How’d It Go?

Really well. Fartlek, part on road part on track.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?
Would I have regretted skipping this?
What can I remember about this feeling for next time?
Any woo woo mantras
Anything worth nothing about nutrition?
How did those shoes feel?
Any interesting visual cues?

On the track it was very nice to know with certainty where, physically, I needed to run to to complete a given distance. Not sure what can be taken from that into regular runs, but it’s worth thinking about.

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?

No I need new jams!!

What was it about THIS run?
How’d It Go?

An easy one today, kind of felt like another rest day would have been good, but I also felt ready, somehow. Got up and out early enough, out before 5:30, did have to loop around for a bathroom break, and that was fine too.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Calm. Did kind of wish I had spent some more time at home hanging out with Felix before I went.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yeah

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Any woo woo mantras
Anything worth nothing about nutrition?
How did those shoes feel?
Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How’d It Go?

It was ideal. Fresh-ish legs, excited to get the week going,.. tempo run! What could be better. I didn’t set any land speed records but I definitely have it a good effort.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

The good kind of calm. Though still a bit of a busy mind.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?
Any woo woo mantras
Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Yeah I ate three bowls of Honey Nut Cheerios in the middle of the night preceding. Don’t think it had any serious impact other than horrible toilet times.

How did those shoes feel?

Speeds! Felt great again! So great I ordered a second pair! V is gonna kill me!!

Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How’d It Go?

The run itself went extremely well, I felt well-rested (possibly thanks to the extra nap yesterday afternoon), my legs felt like they had a lot in them. But I did start later than normal (didn’t actually get out until 6:30), and this gave me a vaguely uneasy sense, not that “there is enough time for everything” feeling. At about 3km I realized that I was doing great as far as unbroken running, and decided that since future me would feel really disproportionately good if I hit 5km without a break, I felt empowered to commit to that goal and in fact I did reach it, and went past it to 6km actually!

I listened to that other mindful run, the one with Colleen Quigley, and I think I need to give it a few more tries and listen more closely. My default position on this one has been that it’s not as good as the English Gardener one, but I think that might not be true.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?
Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yeah

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

As it turned out there WAS time for everything, and it’s only 10:30 now as I write this.

Any woo woo mantras

I am not frightened by this challenge I am motivated by this challenge

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

The pop tart... did not bring me pleasure today oh nooooo! Though as a complicating factor I did have a big bowl of yogurt and fruit after sex-doing time but before bed, and kind of had this feeling of “I’m not sure I’m hungry for breakfast at all this morning”

How did those shoes feel?

Truly great. Good enough that because they were on super-sale, I ordered a second pair of nordlite speeds.

Any interesting visual cues?

Not specifically, did get this feeling of “I cannot be the only one concocting adventures for all the animals I see, I should ask around about that.”

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?

Push

What was it about THIS run?
How’d It Go?

Went late morning, on a heat wave day... not so fun. Not terrible though.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?
Would I have regretted skipping this?
What can I remember about this feeling for next time?
Any woo woo mantras
Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Brought water in a handheld, it was really yucky and warm by the end but it helped. I think it’s a must for anything in actual heat, but maybe we could freeze it ahead of time or something. Also really liked the feeling of something to lightly wrap my hand around.

How did those shoes feel?
Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?

Needed a break from summer kind of feeling.

How’d It Go?

Hills workout, went to the hill over in echo valley. So much fun.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Capable

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

I think you are starting to tie the feeling of confidence in this area to confidence throughout the rest of your life, and I don’t think that’s necessarily a bad thing but you should stay aware of that, that’s a big thing that you could suddenly find is broken in some way

Any woo woo mantras

Worked with the idea of “push like heck on the last barely graded little bit of the rep” again, and I think it served me once again to do so.

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

VERY hungry this morning, but didn’t end up having anything extra, maybe that was a mistake?

How did those shoes feel?

Ultra 3’s. Felt like the perfect choice today.

Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?

Lots of playing with focus, it seems

How’d It Go?

Sometimes you have a day where you are cooked and you are having to back off or walk a lot, sometimes you have a very similar day to that but instead you feel totally okay with having to take walk breaks and are grateful for that chances to collect your thoughts, today was one of those.

This run came the day after early monday morning make-up long run, so the tank was definitely close to empty. And yet... made it through, barely.

Definitely my overall sentiment coming out of this is surprise and gratitude that my right leg/hip are healing up nicely, the other thought is that I’m a little overtired and overtrained, taking Wednesday off should help and we’ll go from there. Volume is going to be ramping up over the next months, so we’re just going to have to figure out some approach for those long runs. Got some gels on the way, that could be good.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?
Would I have regretted skipping this?

Not sure

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?
Any woo woo mantras
Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Need to start working on finding a new gel

How did those shoes feel?

Softer than what I needed I think.

Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How’d It Go?

Hoo boy, missed Sunday long run so Sunday long run became Monday long run. Had bathroom problems out there... for a long time now I have wondered to myself “what do people even mean when they talk about bathroom emergencies on the run, what are they pooping in the woods?” and the answer is, yes, if they are lucky then they poop in the woods. Followed by a very luxurious porto-potty!

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Felt kind of... just normal! Got right in the car and drove Felix to camp, it as nice.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes! But glad it’s done.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

That Sunday would be better, but Monday IS possible.

Any woo woo mantras
Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Only had one gel to bring with me, had it at ~8km, might have been that or something else but the bonk was definitely pushed off. Came back for me at ~13km, took a few minutes but managed to shake it off and run the last 1k.

How did those shoes feel?

Speeds are still the mvps in the lineup!

Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How’d It Go?

Really really nice again this morning. Got up on time, started a bit discombobulated because others got up at the same time, but ultimately we just thought our separate thoughts. I do feel like I’m identifying an issue with.. trying to think too early in the morning. That my mind is waking up busy, instead of calmed by the rest. Need to look at that. But increasingly feeling... disbelief? at the physical recovery. Something like it.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Better, appropriately run into the day.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Very much! Went from run to rest to garden to tutoring, and above all else was able to hold on to the feeling that there was enough time, the whole time.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

You could always leave a little earlier! If the problem is letting yourself get mired in thought, maybe leaving sooner after waking could prevent that kind of drift?

Any woo woo mantras
Anything worth nothing about nutrition?
How did those shoes feel?
Any interesting visual cues?

Saw a cool gang of four crows haunting the Osmow’s parking lot.

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How’d It Go?

This was another very positive step. Felt more capable, not fully healed but on the right trajectory, managing to match my effort to what’s possible. That, for whatever reason, has tilted me back towards fusing presence and confidence together, feeling more hopeful about being able to engage at work. Part of that I think is also work reverberations... moved from a spike where I never really achieved mastery of the subject matter, to a bug with a very well defined terminal state.

I am also very ready to say now that the heat was the main factor in the general heat up feeling yesterday, it was quite mild this morning and overwhelming fatigue at “normal” pace just wasn’t a problem today the way it was yesterday.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Kind of... pleasantly surprised, is one way I might put it

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes. But I think we could have done a little bit more, but what we did do ended up being the right amount of time relative to the time you left

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

That I think you can go further, and that I think you might be closer to finding that next gear

Any woo woo mantras
Anything worth nothing about nutrition?
How did those shoes feel?
Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How’d It Go?

Mixed. First run since hurting leg on Monday. I will describe that here, since it doesn’t fit into any other entries. Was doing a strength workout, did a reverse lunch + chop to the left, felt something “not right” in my right leg, like as if something that was meant to be on one side of the top of my hip somehow shifted to the other side. Felt horrible.

Still sore today, but only in a very particular direction of extension.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?
Would I have regretted skipping this?
What can I remember about this feeling for next time?
Any woo woo mantras
Anything worth nothing about nutrition?
How did those shoes feel?
Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How’d It Go?

First long run of the block to actually feel like a long run. Went all the way to James Gardens, saw a lot of pleasant scenery.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Tired, a little numb.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

I would regret missing the adaptations, and I would regret not having the day off tomorrow.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?
Any woo woo mantras

I consciously decide to continue at a sustainable pace

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Tried to head off the 10k bonk with a gel at 7k, didn’t really hit the spot and I think I am ready to try other gels (this was a gu)

How did those shoes feel?

Speeds, fine

Any interesting visual cues?

No, in fact I had a very hard time paying attention to my surroundings today. Or listening. That was not so great tbh.

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How’d It Go?

Not bad! First couple of k felt not bad but not nice. Circled back for bathroom break, second half felt a lot better. Reflected later that I did feel a bit clenched pre-run while preparing food, that’s probably what that was. Also realized post-run that apart from any particular reason yesterday was bad, it is also objectively true that it was Thursday and the week is not an easy thing to outlast!

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Reassured, hopeful about the day.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

You can do this

Any woo woo mantras

I consciously decide to proceed at a sustainable pace

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?
How did those shoes feel?
Any interesting visual cues?

Was out for sunrise this time, it felt good to be present to observe that transition

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?

This run came the day after a quite poor day, I wouldn’t say it was miraculously great but it was enough to give me a positive feeling of “you can have a bad day and still come back and be okay”. Notable physical quirks

How’d It Go?

Felt okay at the time, was definitely cooked in a not-so-pleasant way by the end, and was a bit glassy eyed all day. Started out late, around 6, but with the positivity of “the full blessing” from family. Pre-run others were also up and I generally don’t love that but whatever! The run itself, during, was sooo much fun, it was a pyramid and it was just flowing really easily, felt excited about each new interval. But yes, afterwards wasn’t the greatest.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Sort of... confused. Is okay, it’s been a bit since we had a bad day, and this one took us close to the edge of overtraining. Main question is... normally I’d do a strength session on the same day as a workout, but would that be too much? Is my body warning me?

Would I have regretted skipping this?

I don’t know.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

There will still be bad days.

Any woo woo mantras
Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Maybe should have brought some water today?

How did those shoes feel?
Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How’d It Go?

Felt quite strong, but let me tell you, coming out of that straight into the nightmare of trying to fix a technics set out of order on strict orders from The Boy... phewwwwwww I am seeing some of the more subtle dimensions of the age 10 limit on the box

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

An amount of cooked that is rationally consistent with the effort I did. Also feel the satisfaction of having exercised an appropriate amount of restraint.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Very much.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Sleep more

Any woo woo mantras
Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Same old.

How did those shoes feel?

Speeds once again, once again I think this could be my favourite shoe, period.

Any interesting visual cues?

Physical cue not visual, started thinking about the shape of my effort as like two intersecting bows, from arm all the way down the body to the opposite food, and the stride is the effort of drawing the bow, and then the imaginary cue of your foot launching like an arrow somehow does something to make an increase in foot speed feel achievable.

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?

All music for psychedelic therapy all the time.

What was it about THIS run?
How’d It Go?

It went quite well, I left early enough, and got back early enough to not feel rushed. Truly felt up to the “there is still time” ethos today I think.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Verrrry sleepy, things are still okay but you’re going to have to start actually sleeping earlier if you want to keep this up. Also ended up taking an hour long

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yeap.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

You chilled for a full hour before the run and STILL had enough time. Tomorrow’s another slightly longer easy run, you can do it again, I believe in you.

Any woo woo mantras
Anything worth nothing about nutrition?
How did those shoes feel?
Any interesting visual cues?

Dawn... is quite good. But also getting up before the flies means that at some point in the run, the flies do wake up and then they come for you.

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How’d It Go?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Positive. But came back to some tension, and I’m not sure what to make of it other than I don’t like that every time I come back there’s tension, but maybe you could more productively approach this by... actually getting to sleep at night and then actually getting out the door on time.

Would I have regretted skipping this?
What can I remember about this feeling for next time?
Any woo woo mantras

No but last night during yoga nidra had a full on experience of completely flipping my sensory perspective... Like as if you could clench your fist, and then fully perceive the effect of the clenching, instead of the cause of the clenching?

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

First of all did night eating for the first time in a long time last night... I find myself thinking of it as a positive because it followed a POSITIVE experience rather than a negative experience, but don’t detach too far from the idea that both contexts for enjoying this particular kind of comfort could be counterproductive

How did those shoes feel?

Okay! Gliderides.

Any interesting visual cues?

The light was right to do the “breathe in and witness the saturation of everything radiate”

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?

Nothing new, dancing by myself was the mvp today

What was it about THIS run?

New questions section? Think about... the questions section is kind of like an ad hoc recapitulation of the whole template so you could make an active effort to mine it for new prompt ideas Honest fear inventory

Fear that I might have lost the capacity to quickly see “obvious areas for improvement” in code review, and that transfers to fears about interviewing. SO, assess that fear, is it REALLY a serious deficiency, or is it something that can be trained back, or is it something that doesn’t need to be trained back because it has been supplemented over time with other areas of insight

Fear that what I am thinking of as good sex is actually nice only for me, especially because the thing I hope I am getting lots of happiness from is from successfully pleasing.

Had some ideas for journal project out there...

could we make a bot that would look for areas in code where it seems like there is GPT code that has not been well integrated by the human, and then GPT uses those specific areas to teach, through test writing and showing insights about improvements, and could we use that as the major push towards opening the repo and how... if I think this is a useful thing, does that mean that I am a weak little junior who needs to go to code academy?

How could I get this repo ready to go public? License, for one. Should we, for another.

Also has there possibly this whole time been a way to approach this as an extension to day one instead of a standalone thing, and if that were the case what extra things could MY way offer that an extension to day one could not.

How’d It Go?

Very well. Left too late again, except now I realize that that matters EXTRA for long runs, of course it does. Was still back only a little after 7 but I don’t feel that’s good enough. The route was pretty much one long rolling climb, with a long rolling descent on the way back. The emotional landscape that led to was feeling a bit defeated on the way up and then feeling fine on the way back down. Didn’t see a lot of animals.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Felt ready to go... I think I preserved that feeling of “I have now reached the thing that I was running towards all that time.”

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yup but earlier would be better!!!!

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Sunscreen and anti-chafe were worth it. SUNGLASSES also would have been worth it.

Any woo woo mantras

Some thinking about equanimity. A little of the old “yes you can athlete” on the way up a few hills. Had the frightening idea that... maybe I get what chakras are supposed to feel like? Not as real things, but like when you have the feeling of being able to direct your inhale to a particular place in the body, even though it might not be real, maybe that’s what that feeling is?

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Did the thing again about not going straight to the second cup of coffee after returning.

How did those shoes feel?

Not bad, not great. I think my legs weren’t super happy today.

Any interesting visual cues?

The world’s colour palette increasing in saturation on inhale a bit.

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How’d It Go?

I thought it went really well, once again! Did manage to leave a bit earlier (like 15 minutes earlier), though I think closer to 5:15 would be better. Better for you in every way.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

I felt like... I had run all this way, just to arrive in time to start the day with my loves!

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yeah.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

You’re getting better.

Any woo woo mantras

There is still time to do less!

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Re-upped the pop tarts, again.

How did those shoes feel?

The nordlite speeds, once again they felt amazing. Bit of heel slip at first with the nat geo socks, I don’t think either of the stances are a good fit for those, go with smartwools next time.

Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How’d It Go?

Came away feeling it was a good one. How I do not know, many of the recent negative factors were there (overthinking, looking at dumb shit on the internet before going, reduced clarity), but then once I got out there, had very little trouble zooming in on the moment. One difference, I did meditate last night.

Also did a little run up the hydro RoW at the end, the path there is basically single-track which made me think about... what is the “right way” to run single track, are you supposed to bring your feet in to strike in the middle of the path, or do you sort of frankenstein shuffle with your feet on either side of the path?

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Neck still a little sore (though that was from last night, not so much this morning), generally just sort of... awake, aware, quiet. Felt like a second coffee after would likely be a mistake, and I had it anyhow, and it DOES seem to have been a mistake, so that’s a lesson for next time.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yup. BUT LEAVING EARLIER WOULD BE BETTER.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?
Any woo woo mantras

There was SOMETHING from waking up #25 that I meant to remember and then forgot. But one thing I DID remember from it was the “summon a smile in consciousness” idea, and it was valuable.

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Last of the pop tarts, maybe? Probably not, probably you’ll just buy more.

How did those shoes feel?

GREAT!! I think it is time to get more serious about looking for enduris 3/4 deals.

Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?

No. But did a head starts run and enjoyed it.

What was it about THIS run?
How’d It Go?

Very interestingly! I put into practice the theory and semi-deliberately set out, did about 1km before coming back, using the bathroom, and only then starting the main workout for the day.

This was also just a day after a massage, when I thought I would actually feel sore, but instead I felt and thought about the idea that whatever we think about “sports massage,” one of its differences is that it’s intended to get you back out for MORE activity, vs helping you once you have come back.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Felt good but everyone was up with me at 4:15, it was frustrating that there was no alone time.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?
Any woo woo mantras

Felt very tired, for sure, and it was harder than usual to shift into “awake “ mode

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Just about time to try out some non-pop-tart approaches.

How did those shoes feel?
Any interesting visual cues?

"and the thing I didn’t get to finish telling you outside, the sun is still not all the way up, I’m puttering along and I come across this older guy, who like I mentioned had a real “rat pack guy in retirement” look about him, he’s got a cup of coffee in one hand and a HUGE KNARLED GANDALF looking walking stick, like taller than his head, and he is TAKING HIS CAT FOR A WALK OFF LEAD

“and well you know me I usually stay out of it but I like, slowed down and gawked at him and he was like “wut” and I was like “are you walking your cat right now?” and he says “yes I am” and I say “that’s the single greatest thing I’ve ever seen” and he chuckles and gives me a “respect” nod and we go our separate ways” Any power jams? Anything you want to select?

Just ritual this morning.

What was it about THIS run?
How’d It Go?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Felt a bit... “this is normal now” about getting up. But still taking too much time on prep.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Very much. Had to cut it short to make it happen, but it was worth it.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Leave earlier, fool!

Any woo woo mantras
Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Had a moment of the unhealthy feeling of “I think I’m only getting up and out to get to eat a pop tart”

How did those shoes feel?

Speeds, these are my race day shoes for sure.

Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

No less heady than yesterday, but overall came out of it feeling positive. Felt like whether I saw it or not, some part of me learned something from yesterday’s less positive long run. Which this was longer than, but more importantly was much closer to a true easy effort.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yeah

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

A lot of the pleasantness of today came from setting out, coming back to use the head (and also getting in a few minutes of parenting), and then setting out again. That’s significant.

Any woo woo mantras

No but I have forgotten to note the past few runs that I have been trying to be more intentional about doing a cooldown, so wrapping it up a little bit before

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

No toast, just the usuals.

How did those shoes feel?

Enduris. Felt great. I think there might be something to the firm is better for fresh legs idea.

Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

We got it done but it was a lot less pleasant than usual. Busy mind.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

I would regret skipping all of these but would probably regret this one less than average.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?
Any woo woo mantras
Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Overslept, didn’t get out until 10:30. Ate a normal toast + 1 pop tart + 1 coffee beforehand, didn’t seem to get it done for me.

How did those shoes feel?

Ultra 3’s, too firm today.

ETA: Although I didn’t love the shoes for the bulk of the run, I did a set of 3 strides at the end and they felt INCREDIBLE. Very dialled in, very high output low effort.

Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Busy mind once again, but did feel well focused while I was out there

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes! But something is still up and I think I know what

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

The run is above all else enhancing how you already feel, so maybe look at what else might be making you unhappy. Or not making you MORE happy

Any woo woo mantras
Anything worth nothing about nutrition?
How did those shoes feel?

Rebels, for easy run. Was a good choice!

Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?

Got zonesense working, but not yet sure if it’s going to do the thing it’s supposed to do

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Felt very... serious. Felt like I had righted the wrong of missing the morning and having to go at 9. That aspect felt unhealthy. The seriousness, I think, allowed me to do the workout well and at pace. So what can I say!?

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Just get up and do it man, figure out your alarm clock shit. Did a couple of very loose but very fast strides at the end, that felt really good, the intangibles from strides are really special I think.

Any woo woo mantras

No, mind was a real washing machine today.

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?
How did those shoes feel?

Wore the speeds again. I think these are what I want for workouts going forward. Not sure I can afford to replace them when they’re done!

Any interesting visual cues?

Got that feeling of a super still viewpoint floating through space, with arms randomly popping into bottom frame

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Quite peaceful, getting a bit of quiet time on a Monday morning because the kids are home from school due to the heat wave.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes. But I wish I hadn’t had to stop in for poopin

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Having time for a recovery/reflection afterwards is one of the important pleasures of bothering to do this practice. Saw The Cleanup Crew again at wedgewood. Been using the t. rex arms on downhills cue

Any woo woo mantras
Anything worth nothing about nutrition?
How did those shoes feel?
Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Feel tired, calm. But also feels like whole self is in the washing machine, not just mind. How is that compatible with calm, I do now know.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes, please sleep more David it will be easier to recover from these efforts

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Set out feeling generally unhappy for the first time in a while (tough weekend, bad days in the news), still did okay, still processing what exactly was different out there today.

High humidity means you gotta protect against chafing, I think it’d be better to break out the mr nipples all summer

Any woo woo mantras

This is really pretty hot

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Maybe was nutrition, maybe not, but I do think I experienced a bonk at about 10k, similar to the feeling I would get when returning to the big creek-side bend in eagle valley.

How did those shoes feel?

Speeds, felt just right. Starting to feel like it’s time to drop the baggage of all the other shoes and just keep the core 3-4.

Any interesting visual cues?

Sunrise nice. Physical cue of scrunching toes as I pushed off on uphills, and found that it gave me a little extra push. Also continued to try the thing of firming up core and pelvic floor to give legs something to push off of.

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Felt capable, but in retrospect felt a bit too capable, may have pushed too hard in some conversations with partner.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Not sure. Probably. Not the greatest context around the whole thing. Returned to a mental health situation (for partner) that deteriorated.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

It can help, whenever. But if it’s harming other bits of life then it’s time to consider an alternate path.

Any woo woo mantras

Thinking about that idea of the past being that very pretty and brittle dance right at the edge of the past and the future, something like that. What do you want from me, it made sense at the time.

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

All the usuals, seemed fine.

How did those shoes feel?

CTM Ultra 3s, felt perfect

Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?

Little did I know the day would get crazy mere hours later

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Felt like it was worth it to meditate last night, it definitely tilted my attention a little bit away from being fully anchored in the body.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

YES

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

When humidity is normal, t-shirt for 20 degrees. When humidity is high, you should wear a singlet for that same temperature. It was very swampy out there and the twilight singlet would have been a lot nicer. And shorter socks.

Any woo woo mantras

Trillions of cells, radiant with sensation

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Did NOT manage to Use It before setting out, and it turned out fine. I did have the tangerine dream fibre drink in the evening before

How did those shoes feel?

Rebel v4s, felt nice, light, good for softness, I think the speeds would have been nicer for this effort just because the Rebels have that soft heel / negative tilt thing happening.

Any interesting visual cues?

Well I did see that steam roller

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?

Absolutely not, had a really hard time locking in on music today/ That turned out to be the same I think, but I wonder what that means

What was it about THIS run?

Feels like whatever traction is happening, it is holding

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Hungrier!

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Just going to have to figure out how to poop first.

Any woo woo mantras

No woo woo. Had to come back home for bathroom break. Timing still needs work. Need to go back to fibre drink 7 days a week.

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Coffee fine, something sweet better. The difference in feeling is like... coffee gives too much treble, some sugar gives some bass, bass > treble.

How did those shoes feel?

Glideride 3s, felt fine, did the job

Any interesting visual cues?

Not visual, but did set out before clothes were fully dry (did a wash last night) and that certainly did not help with the body revolt let me tell you.

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?

No, WAY too oblivious for most of it. Listened to the eight mountains for the last ~10 minutes, I think story time could be a good alternative mode for some of these runs, but not sure if that would work better across the board or for particular run types.

What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Felt really good, ran a PR (or at least a RECENT PR), but also the anticlimax of nobody caring ha ha.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Not sure. Went later than I would have liked, felt a little like stolen time.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Get up earlier as a GIFT to yourself, then you don’t have to feel like the time is stolen

Any woo woo mantras

The sun rises in the east and sets in the west

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?
How did those shoes feel?

CTM ultra 3s, firm but nice... once I started using my core and basement more, the rocker was feeling more correct for the firmness

Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?

Fight the power continues to feel good, but also it feels so lame personally haha

What was it about THIS run?

Father’s Day PR, baby!

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Quiet confidence, that kind of vibe. This was the week’s long run, and it felt like I was able to treat it like no big deal.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Even leaving as late as 6 was still nice, when time permits and if it meant we would not be going otherwise. But remember to give Lia medicine next time, if you’re going to get up late!

Any woo woo mantras

Something I forgot... it was something returning to the “whatever this is, this is it” line of reasoning, but not that wording. Also some sleeper-must-awaken type bull-honkey

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Pop tarts AND coffee AND gatorade.

How did those shoes feel?

Nordlite Speeds, felt great! Toes felt a bit crunched by the end, but no discomfort at the time.

Any interesting visual cues?

No... I had been hoping to bring my camera along though but then didn’t do it, too bad that might have been nice but it’s hard to risk the chafing at the longer length.

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?

The morning before father’s day, maybe I felt like I was out there with the other dads ha ha. Rando thoughts...

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Also want to note this weird feeling that came up during mediation last night, of... like... waking from a dream, such a great feeling, you see and think and feel about all those things you just saw, and then have all these thoughts and feelings about the way things ARE, what you think you are waking up TO, and then you realize that both of those are just... the dream, and then you wake up! “all of this is so, and now I’m awake”

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Feels like I don’t need to g-o anymore and like I didn’t have to go in a bush before I made it home.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes but it’s one of those “would miss having done it” instances. I didn’t NOT enjoy it while I was out there, but didn’t savour it while in it.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

If you don’t get up early enough you won’t have a good time.

Any woo woo mantras
It’s not just okay to try, it’s IMPORTANT, even as at the same time it’s important to be not fully CYNICAL, but cynical enough. Skeptical. Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

No coffee before, maybe that would have better moved the bathroom situation along before setting out. Pop tarts, though!

How did those shoes feel?

Enduris 3s, nothing special today, socks too thin tbqh, I think I might need to pay attention to socks for a minute 😭

Any interesting visual cues?
Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?

This was one of those “took a chance and found out” bathroom problem runs. But goddammit it does feel sufficiently good to just make it that it’s nearly worth the risk.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Calm, but not at all numb. A little bit unsure of whether that was actually me out there.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Verrrry much.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

You can avoid the heat for the most part and still do an occasional day run. Or, OTOH, perhaps it will be hot in the wee hours soon enough.

Any woo woo mantras

Nothing today. Not sure if I was not having thoughts, or suppressing them, or just being with them,, but found it to be a very non-cerebral time out there today. Even listened to a guided run, and remember almost nothing about it.

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Had been drinking decaf earlier in the week, went back to regular today.

How did those shoes feel?

Rebel v4s, they felt GREAT!

Any interesting visual cues?

Very little... it truly did feel great at the time but my impression looking back is that I was barely present. But that’s not true, I was there for the work!

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Happy to have gotten it done, VERY happy to feel like the habit-groove hasn’t worn away. Maybe a varying wake-up time can work?

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

That what you are really feeling is “having enough time to live in alignment”

Any woo woo mantras

I accept this riot of sensation.

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Decided I wasn’t ready to be done with pop tarts. Had coffee before, and feel maybe even a little more committed than ever to the idea that coffee before is not helping.

How did those shoes feel?

CTM Ultra 3s, felt too firm, poor roll through. Just wasn’t their day. Need to try something different for easy days, you almost consciously chose those in spite of knowing that they weren’t the best choice for this effort.

Any interesting visual cues?

The way the animals come out to see what you’re up to when you go that early, it’s no wonder there are so many children’s stories about the secret natural world.

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?

Felt good once I got going, did not feel the greatest, mentally, in the bit before we went. It was enough time, but it’s like we woke up with a busy mind. Need to fine tune that.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Calm, but awake. This was about as long as I’ve gone in a good long while and the exertion felt good.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Could be that much better... if we figure out a way to sleep again and wake early again.

Any woo woo mantras

Something about accepting the exertion?

Anything worth nothing about nutrition?

Two disgusting chocolate pop tarts, Gatorade. Protein, toast with peanut butter, banana after. One cup of coffee before, one after.

How did those shoes feel?

Speeds. Some restriction around toes 4 and 5 on both sides. Not sure what the deal is but somehow I seem to work past it with these where with others, the same issue in the same spot is extremely unpleasant.

Any interesting visual cues?

Just that more trees better once the sun is up.

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?

Last goodbye by odesza. Got fixated on the idea of a playlist that was just “very sad songs, but remixed into bangers.” Seems like a not so easy thing to find.

What was it about THIS run?

When I don’t get alone time before I go... I notice.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Felt really good. Great, even.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes and I almost did, slept in, was going to spend my alone time lazing, but Beeko asked me if I was running and I found that I wanted to say yet.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Your intuitions about your readiness are not always great... day before was a pretty heavy day (fartlek + strength), and we didn’t feel UN-tired, but felt okay with the level of tired.

Any woo woo mantras

Can’t leave it behind, can be intentional about how much effort I expend in carrying it

Anything worth noting about nutrition?

No coffee, just water. One pop tart before, one after. Cookies and cream, awful.

How did those shoes feel?

Once again nice. Giving some thought to adding Enduris 4 to pick list

Any interesting visual cues?

This is a weird one and not visual. Got that tungsten ring today. It is very heavy. Was thinking about how on a bad day you are almost literally feeling a heavy weight in the body. And the thing today was 1) thinking about how that weight can’t be left behind, it’s always with us same as the good is always with us, but 2) imagining that the heavy ring represented that weight, and thinking about “I can carry this”

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?

El Viaje, Good Days

What was it about THIS run?

Easy run on a broken-down day. Rainy, the slightest bit swampy, but mostly just a very pleasant heady run. Also apparently a squirrel lost its wig near Friendly Dr.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Cautiously good, VERY cautious though. Like in a “let us say I suspect the Duke’s son MAY be human” way. Trust but verify.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yeah.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

That on THIS day, I totally didn’t get ready on time, I was ready 30 minutes too late and instead had to go at 6:30 instead of 5, we probably need closer to a full hour to get ready, at least if we don’t

Any woo woo mantras

Whatever... this is? This is it!

How did those shoes feel?

Good, but it ALMOST felt like using the speeds again could have been good too... not sure what it is about those, maybe the stiffness of the plate, but they are really growing on me.

Any interesting visual cues?

Nope it was just nice to take a more haphazard route again... something to be said for the idea that the on-call week has that repetition of scenery as an obstacle.

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?

Absolutely not, I’m at an all-time low for music satisfaction!

What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Like I was headed in the wrong direction, and that I was able to steer the ship a bit more into a better direction.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yup but as usual would have felt better if I had wasted less time prepping.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Sometimes you are going to feel good and sometimes you are going to feel bad. Sometimes it may actually be related to your readiness, sometimes it’s just another area of your life.

ALSO... not so sure coffee is a certain good anymore, and also pretty sure that 15 minutes is not enough prep time, if I actually want to have the carbs on board when I get going.

You had some success with some things, and then you turned those things into a rut.

Any woo woo mantras

No, some thinking about embodiment... like I would have thought that having felt not great the last couple of time would mean that I would do better feeling LESS in my body, but whatever was going on today I felt that tiny bit more capable of witnessing what was happening in my body, and being there with it.

Had this other feeling returning to those thoughts from last week about fully putting down one context and fully picking UP the current context... don’t think I had been honouring that idea in other recent runs.

ALSO felt like... letting go of the overwhelming positivity of last weekend was a positive. Already it had started to create ruts, around a particular fuelling strategy (pop tarts will always be the best cheapest fuel, it says, lemon frost is the best strain, always and forever, because you had a few good times out with it). Fell a bit too far into I’ve got this sorted. I do think the commitments that came out of that nice weekend are worth holding on to, but as goals not as certain outcomes.

How did those shoes feel?

Nordlite Speed. Felt really nice today. Do I know why? No I do not.

Any interesting visual cues?

No particular cues.

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?

Hellraiser, and also that wonderful classic, Kittens. But wasn’t super excited about music today.

What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

I do feel relaxed, but the run itself did not feel relaxing.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Probably.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

A lot of stuff wasn’t working today, it seemed like. I have some theories...

Any woo woo mantras

I consciously decide to continue at a sustainable pace.

How did those shoes feel?

Felt at least at first like I was in another foot-cramper but I’ve gotta believe that it’s some kind of periodic thing, it seems like it comes and goes independent of shoe. So why is that?

Any interesting visual cues?

Not really... I felt barely there.

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Not the best. Better than when I started, but felt like I was under some kind of weight this morning that I never quite shook. Maybe the stress of the week building up? Maybe just not enough sleep last night? Maybe still not fully recovered from the hill workout? Hard to say.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes, but I might not have regretted cutting it a bit shorter.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Need to get up fed and out faster, but also need to get going earlier and with less fatigue, just an overwhelming feeling of it being difficult to get going today.

Any woo woo mantras
How did those shoes feel?

Ultra 3’s, not the greatest today tbh! Felt overly stiff, ended up with those foot cramps I’m sometimes prone to... I do think it was me, not the shoes, it feels like when it’s like this the feeling in my body is that I am letting my feet and ankles and legs do too much braking for me, and that causes my feet to really engage and grip, and that leads to the cramps. That’s my intuition about the chain of dysfunction.

Any interesting visual cues?

There were moments where the sky was very pretty and I was really able to be with that sky, but... it’s that feeling when your movements produce such a riot of sensation that it’s hard to focus on anything at all.

Any power jams? Anything you want to select?
What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Calm, but not as equanimous as the last time, I think. And there’s something in that, right, if this is working then the idea is that it doesn’t MAKE me happy, but it can tilt me in that direction enough to help me cultivate it on my own.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes I very much would have, in the moment it was SUPER stressful trying to think of where to do hills in the dark without getting arrested, but in retrospect that was kind of a fun problem to solve, and we did it. And once I had that “this is the place” feeling... I was ready.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Once the sun has at least STARTED to come up, the Etobicoke Creek trail isn’t too spooky.

Any woo woo mantras

This hill has a very steep ascent, followed by a longer much slower ascent for the last 10 seconds (of 60). Was doing a thing of working sort of... hard but controlled effort on the steep ascent, and then just really digging in on the idea of “this is the hard part of the rep” on that last slower part.

How did those shoes feel?

Rebels again, felt good and helped with sort of staying off heels on the ascents, but when I got back I was kind of thinking that TNF Enduris might have been a fun choice.

Any interesting visual cues?

PHYSICAL CUE of REALLY leaning back on downhills and trying to make sure the jog back down is just as much a component of the workout as the uphills.. like working to develop those braking muscles, but going slow because THAT’S where the work is, you need to get more control in the “controlled fall”.

any power jams? anything you want to select?

Nothing particularly great, having a frustrating time trying to find the right power jams right now... want more songs like Born Again but nothing has quite the right energy.

What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

I felt happy and ready to engage with the morning stuff, and that led to me actually injecting a lot of happiness into at least the outward affect of the family? SO this could be a very good thing, but also keep an eye on whether you could be pressuring the others into some obligatory feeling positivity.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes, it was everything I have hoped early rising could be.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

That the sort of top-level abstraction about what worked was... the person I want to be wants to be able to fit these extra practices in... and running early opens up the time before drop-off for THIS writing, for example, and that opens up the time before work for, I hope to do later, dog walking or meditating, and so gluing all that together, the feeling is “I may not love going to bed early and waking up early, but I do believe that those other things are overwhelming worth it, so I guess I will act like I’m capable of the less pleasing bits.

Any woo woo mantras

Just thank-you type stuff today. Corny, but I put on one run, and then after 10 minutes specifically felt like I was receptive to gratitude type feelings today, and switched to a thank you run.

How did those shoes feel?

CTM Ultra 3’s, felt maybe a BIT firmer than I might have liked, but I think that was being a bit slower than normal to adjust my form to go with the shoes. Also had this feeling like... I would like to ask somebody who has run in the hyperion max 1’s if they feel like the ctm ultras, because I have this not well backed up feeling that they would feel similar, just based on what they look like and what I know about them.

Any interesting visual cues?

Just the sunrise today.

any power jams? anything you want to select?

Maybe that teardrop cover? Had trouble attaching to the music today. But have REALLY been enjoying Born Again this weekend, and the vibe I am getting from it is I think just... well rounded confidence? And I think I would like to try to assemble some songs with similar vibe.

What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Calmer, maybe a little nervy from the reintroduction of coffee (this is day 2.5, and today was the day we switched to aeropress)

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Feels like... my unrestrained self would yes. There’s an argument that I should have made this a full rest day, but how many weekend mornings do we even get in life.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

It is not inconceivable that you could feel this way every day.

Any woo woo mantras

I am motivated by this challenge.

How did those shoes feel?

Glideride 3, replaced back to normal criss cross and had much better lockdown, much less of that heel pain. It feels,,, good? to have (I hope) identified that problem and worked through it.

Any interesting visual cues?

Inspired by seeing all the good dogs. And people out for a walk with their babies/strollers, I remember how hard it was just to get the momentum to get out the door!!

What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

I felt extremely... ready to do the day. I think... I felt a bit of mastery on the run (I think due to taking a new route, taking some difficult terrain, and feeling like I was able to keep at it) that carried into the rest of the morning.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

YES! Could have had a slightly tighter morning loop though... did get up at 5, but didn’t actually get out the door until past 7.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

That even if getting up early is hard, you can do hard things, and you can do them by doing OTHER hard things at other times of the day (less entertainment before bed, for example)

Any woo woo mantras

Stop being afraid of being smart. (but also literally wanting to ask chatgpt “how can I tell if I’m smart” hahaha).

Not a mantra, but was thinking about the idea that if we draw nourishment from the idea of “this is something I have done before and can do,” well, the future you experiencing that is the person whose past self spent right now believing that???

How did those shoes feel?

CTM Ultra 3s, and a few runs in they are EXACTLY what I was hoping they would be. Now thinking about narrowing the shoe pile down to those, the Nordlite Speeds, the Rebels, the glide rides.

Any interesting visual cues?

Saw a literal eagle flying overhead, and then saw other smaller birds either flying out of its way or attacking that, thought of myself as shoving elbows first through a crowd of everything holding me back 😆🦅

What was it about THIS run?, what was the story? And what if any part does it have in the bigger story?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

A little shaky all over, a little cold, wet socks, but overall great.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes very much but I could regret the whole thing less in the future if I get up early and do it before school time

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Any woo woo mantras

The future you who did the thing is the present you who is doing the thing

How did those shoes feel?

Very positive time with the nordlite speeds, which is more than I can say about my earlier experiences with them! But need to wear slightly more substantial socks, heel was lifting out a lot (and yet STILL it was a positive time)

Any interesting visual cues?
What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Calm (but also un-calm because this is the middle of a big internet outage right now)

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes but I would have gotten more out of starting earlier

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

THIS is why it’s worth getting up and out early.

Any woo woo mantras

this challenge motivates me

How did those shoes feel?

Rebel v4, felt great, continue to be a great option at a lot of paces

Any interesting visual cues?

No but did try labeling in/out on breathing, right/left on stride (sometimes intentionally reversed, which was true)

What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

(Sunday) felt good, maybe too good, picked it up a bit too much at the end for an easy run

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes!

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Any woo woo mantras

processing grief... thought about Eileen, and what a unique opportunity that was at the funeral; also saw a Uncle Henri lookalike, and then saw a corvette, and then thought about the time we had to try to drive his corvette

How did those shoes feel?

Great!

Any interesting visual cues?

Hands poking into lower boundary of vision, felt good but also felt a bit... detached.

What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

I feel amazing, capable, these sorts of feelings, also conflicted to have been away from garden... recurring feeling of “if you want to run then somehow you have to actually sleep and if you have to actually sleep then you have to find another way with the dogs

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

I once again ate a little bit more than felt “right” before I wen

Any woo woo mantras

If we notice contentment more, we are more likely to feel content

How did those shoes feel?

Enduris 3 and they felt great!! Not sure why, only plainly different thing was I wore the toe socks

Any interesting visual cues?

Went on a route I’ve never been on before, and just the visual novelty was invigorating

What was it about THIS run?

Long weekend, felt real, felt like an unclench

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Felt a BIT rushed but that was by the ride from dad. Felt disappointed in the amount of walking, and pinned it on the ultras felt truly done, which might be true but I do not know

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes, it feels objectively GOOD to get this difficult thing done even on an office day

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

That it is starting at an APPROPRIATE time that makes or does not make it possible

Any woo woo mantras

something around infinite possibilities in the present

How did those shoes feel?

👎

Any interesting visual cues?

Cherry/magnolia blossoms

What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

I felt very at peace, like I had done just enough, not more.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes! It was not just a run but an opportunity to demonstrate changing path in a way that shows I’m taking “being on time” seriously.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Working hard can be super fun and easy running can be super fun, but just because one or the other is on the calendar doesn’t mean you MUST do that one that day. Let yourself be flexible and believe that you will naturally strike a healthy balance between the hard work and hard easy work.

Any woo woo mantras

Not today. The other day I did “I welcome boundless curiosity into my heart”

How did those shoes feel?

Quite good today, but as always better at the end than at the beginning.

Any interesting visual cues?

Not quite a VISUAL, but in the last little bit I realized that by holding my feet a bit more rigid at the footstrike, I was forcing a forefoot strike in a way that felt sustainable. I feel like this could be a good thing to try on its own, but also I wonder if that’s a sign that I am craving a higher drop?

What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Calmer. But I do wish I had started earlier.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

I would have regretted skipping this.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?
Any woo woo mantras
How did those shoes feel?
Any interesting visual cues?
What was it about THIS run?
How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Writing the day after... it felt like it had not made much of a dent in my mental state, but I was glad to have done it.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

No... but I wish I could have been better prepared for a workout.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Timing matters, and eating matters.

Any woo woo mantras
How did those shoes feel?

Crampy feet again for a piece of this... I think I need more going into calf stretches, for real.

Any interesting visual cues?
What was it about THIS run?

Not quality.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Felt strangely like it was an accomplishment to cut the run short, which I did because I was getting (I think) heel slipping in the orange crafts. But didn’t feel great about not running as far.

The main interesting thing about the shoe issue though is that the pain wasn’t THAT bad, but I was really resistant to being distracted from the run-talk thing.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes I would.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

It’s okay if the day doesn’t go your way, we can try again tomorrow.

Any woo woo mantras

“I am ready to open my heart to curiosity and presence”

The old standard, “trillions of cells, radiant with sensation”

How did those shoes feel?

Glideride is pretty consistently smooth, but I did have this feeling of... emptiness, under the inner back quadrant of my foot. I think I’m having heel slip.

Any interesting visual cues?

Yes, I noticed I could see the neon yellow of my sleeves coming in and out of my pov, and so what I did was look ahead for anything else yellow, and then compared the flitting nature of the sleeves with (usually) the steady fire hydrant ahead, and that felt nice.

What was it about THIS run?

Realized partway through that I was going to be late, but let it go in a way that was proportionate to the thing that was going to be late.

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?
Would I have regretted skipping this?
What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Any woo woo mantras

How did those shoes feel?

Any interesting visual cues?

Are willows descended from more awuatic flora than other trees?

What was it about THIS run?

Did Rajo suggest sofi tukker

New template with this stuff

How do I feel right now compared to before I ran?

Heavy legs. CTM ultras seem to be failing me. But tried the “field of sensation” thing and it was effective. I’m taking an amount of time to get ready that results in me feeling late and unpleasant during the runs, need to get that under control somehow.

Would I have regretted skipping this?

Yes.

What can I remember about this feeling for next time?

Get ready faster, leave sooner. Go slower.

“Trillions of cells, radiant with sensation”

Run stuff

RunGap Workout — Morning Run

Finished it, not bad!

Hilarious observations from David the comedian... us holding up traffic taking tangents walking to the start line; the big ol line of cars doing the same google directions in sync; the whole mass of runners oozing along the route one hop at a time, what that has to do with material behaviours